Looks like I'm staying in MN a little longer

I have decided to change my plane ticket and stay in Minnesota for 2 extra weeks. I knew it was going to cause problems, I just got it all wrong on the person that would be mad at me. Ro is a little bit sad, but so am I. I miss him. He is my husband, he is mine and I miss seeing him every single day. But, Zoe is going back to Chile with me and if that means waiting 2 weeks then fine. I'll wait so I can take my little muffin with me! Since I have been home I have been putting myself in other people's shoes. I have thought about how living their lives must be. Many times I left the thought feeling extremely jealous, sometimes I could really understand where they were coming from, but some people I don't get it. For the life of me I could put myself in their shoes and as much as I wish I could see what has them so cheesed off about me, I just don't see it. I don't understand the way I am treated here. My family doesn't get me. The connection I thought I had to this place seems to have disappear right before my eyes. Maybe Minnesota, "home," doesn't deserve the halo I put on its head. Every time I come back here I feel awkward at first and this time I haven't lost that feeling. I miss so much of what is going on in other people's lives, I miss trips, get togethers I miss it all. And when I come back I can't laugh at the remember when.... because I was never there so of course I don't remember. Sigh. I think its time for me to give up. Why should I make Rodrigo move here when I don't even feel accepted here? That just doesn't seem fair. But then again, life is not fair. It never has been and probably never will be. Of course I am going to try to enjoy the rest of my time here, but I am not going to lie its going to be hard especially now that I really know how they feel when I come home. Sigh. I didn't think I was thought of as so little....ever.....