Dreams.

I haven't been able to sleep very good at all in the last few weeks. I have dreamt and tossed and turned night after night, after night. I miss having my hubby in bed next to me. I am starting to just think that is the only reason I am not sleeping. I am also thinking that its because as much as I am ready to be back in Chile with Ro, I am sooooo not looking forward to it. Ro told me that we aren't going to have an apartment right away when I get back. So, I am once again dreading the fact that I have to live in my in-laws house again.
I have even started having nightmares about it. I dream of being locked in our bedroom and not being able to get out until late at night when Ro gets home from work. Of course I have a right to be scared of being in my room all day because that's how it was this last time before I left Chile. We weren't allowed to use the kitchen until night and someone won't mention names... was always in the bathroom. For hours at a time. She I mean they, would take a shower then who knows wtf they were doing after that.
I have also dreamt a whole lot of crazy. I have dreamt of going to the dentist and somehow finding out that I am pregnant with triplets on top of the fact that I need to get 8 cavities filled. I know the cavity thing is just me fear of the dentist there just trying to get money out of me because I have never had a cavity in my life and honestly if a Chilean dentist tells me that I have one, I will make him let me see the xrays because I know what they look like. The being pregnant with triplets... I don't even know what to say to that... I guess I'm stocking up on condoms and making sure I never run out of bc pills. No babies for this girl!!
I have dreamt that I was on an airplane heading back to Chile and it landed in Bozeman, Montana instead. And instead of getting on a different flight back to Chile, I just went right back to working like I did when I lived there August 2006 to March 2007. Everything I left there just picked right back up and went on as if I never left in the first place. Of course the horrible part in that dream was that Ro never showed up.
I have dreamt of waking up and every thing in our room had icicles hanging from it and our bedroom door was frozen shut!
I have dreamt of being somewhere in the woods with Ro and we were lost there, but we had everything that we needed to live. There was a house there for us, food, everything to survive. The only thing we didn't have there was a way of communicating with the rest of the world. This dream wasn't very much a nightmare it was kind of peaceful and stress free.
I have dreamt of running away with him. I don't know where we were, but I know that his family and my family both had no idea where we were. We owned a gas station somewhere and somehow a cousin of mine showed up there while Ro was working. Ro called me because that person recognized him and he didn't know what to do. When I went to see them I was carrying a baby. Ro and I sold the gas station and ran away again.
Crazy ass dreams... maybe I should just take sleeping pills and hope they can give me a restless dreamless sleep.