Somethings are great to know...some not at all.

Again, I have been away for awhile. I haven't NOT had time to get online, I just haven't had motivation. We have been keeping busy and mostly enjoying each others company. But, not everything can be good all the time.
We found out that my grandpa had a tumor in his brain. He had surgery at the MAYO last Wednesday and the surgery went as good. Well, good in a way that they removed most of the cancerous stuff and all of the other watery stuff. But the cancer isn't what we wanted it to be. Not that we wanted it to be cancer at all, but it is. I am not a doctor and I really know close to nothing about most medical things especially cancer.
If I was to go into the medical field in no way would I want to be taking a class to teach you how long it will take for an illness to well run its course. Knowing that your expiration date is coming can't be good to know personally and to know about anyone else. I guess 2 and a half years ago, I wouldn't know what it would be like to know that there is only a certain amount of time to be with the person you are married to, the person that matters most to you in the world. It just tears at my heart when I think of what is going to happen. I am not losing my husband, but I can't even begin to imagine the pain it would cause. I already made Ro swear that I can go first. Of course the chances of that aren't so good especially since I am a woman and we live longer than men, and Ro is 2 years older than me.
Anyways this next year will go by just like the rest of the years do. In the back of my mind the time will be ticking, but you never know I guess. Things can change in a year. Science can change, medicine can change, it's possible. All I know is that no matter what I am going to have to go back to Chile and I will regret it forever because I should be here spending as much time with family as I can, but I am too selfish to be away from Rodrigo. So I will go back to Chile and just hope that we can be back here as soon as possible.