So, I was going to delete my post from yesterday because I am so angry about how things are going, but I decided to just write a new post. Yes, 2 posts in 2 days, when was the last time I did that??
Yesterday I wrote about the bbq we were having and how excited I was to spend some time with friends. Well, apparently I have NO friends. Everyone that said they were going to come, didn't. Two of Ro's friends came. None of my "friends" came. To make it even worse, six of the people I invited didn't come because they all went to a fonda and were too drunk to come. They didn't even invite me. So, what did I do last night?? Sat around drinking beer by myself while Ro and his friends talked about the same thing they always talk about every single time they come over, some great amazing trip they are going to take. They have been talking about this for years. YEARS and it never ever ever ever happens. So, you can see how I would be bored with this subject. The only part of the conversation I took part in was telling them the different sites I have used to buy cheap plane tickets. Woohoo. I did play a few songs on Beatles Rock Band by myself. Fun fun. Yes, I am complaining about my pathetic life. I am truly sick of this no friend life... no not even that.. this no friend that I can count on for everything. I just want to go back to MN and know that I will have at least two people that won't let me down. It may seem like a stupid reason to be complaining, but I really do feel like shit. This is not the first time this has happened. I'm so sick of fucking Chileans saying yes to something and then not fucking following through. I am soooo at the end of my rope. If I leave this country it won't be because of my husband it will be because I cannot stand the loneliness anymore. I can't stand not having friends that I can rely on. I can't stand it.
Continuing on. Today we were supposed to go to Ro's grandma's, but they would rather we went over there tomorrow. Not a big deal. So if I wouldn't have spent all my extra spending money on the stuff for my flop of a bbq last night, I could have bought stuff to do some baking to entertain myself today. But instead I am writing a completely negative blog post about my pathetic life. Tonight maybe Ro will want to watch a movie with me or something. We will be turning on the grill again because obviously I have tons of meat that didn't get eaten yesterday.
Hopefully tomorrow will be fun and everything will go as planned. I guess we won't be going to the beach, but maybe we will go on Monday instead. Well, the sun is out so I better go wash clothes.
3 comments:
I know the feeling!! Sometimes I wait all day for my friends and I end up loosing the entire day because 2-3 hours later they finaly call me to let me know they won't be able to make it afterall. I mean come on... Just the other day, my friend kept telling me how much she wanted to take a painting class, and I loved the idea so I found a place for us and she was very excited.I signed up and offered to my friend to sign her up while I was there but she said that she prefered doing it her self. Well guess what, she never did sign up. So now every monday night I go alone to the class she oh soooo wanted to go to...
Hey, I've been a longtime lurker on your and other Chile blogs ;) I definitely know how you're feeling! I got married in Ecuador when I was 19, and it was so hard that my husband had all his friends and family and I had literally no one. Then when I moved back to the US after graduating in Ecuador, I moved out to CA (as opposed to MN, where I'm from) to live with my brother (My ex and I separated a few years before I left Ecuador), and I had to start over again. Having been back for a little over a year now, I am just starting to build a good network of friends, although I am still close to my friends from Ecuador and MN, wherever they are now.
I don't know what my point is, but I have learned that good friends are hard to find wherever you are- but once you find them, the friendships can last across any distance.
I hope you meet some true friends in Chile soon! It will make all the difference. Abrazos desde California!;)
I would like to thank you for the efforts you've made in writing this posting. I'm hoping the same very best function from you inside future too.
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