How Am I Supposed to Feel??

Two weeks at work have gone by pretty quickly. I have to say that I probably don't like my job very much, but it is a job and time has been going by faster now that I have something to do. Mother's Day came and went. I didn't even talk to my mom. What a horrible daughter I am... actually I was busy and she was busy that day so it just didn't happen. Ro's mom's side of the family came over on Sunday for a BBQ. It was mostly uneventful until it was announced that all the women in the family are going on a trip to the south of Chile. Since I was not invited to go, I am lost and confused as to where I stand in this family. Obviously I am a woman... so apparently I am NOT in this family?? I can't help but feel like the only purpose I have in this family is to have a child. In fact it was made quite clear that certain people in the family want to be a grandmother, great grandmother, and aunt, but then again, I am not in this family.... so they can go find someone else to make children for them. Sigh.