Stuck.

I have been feeling a lot better since my last post. I had my trip to MN planned out, but everything is constantly changing in my life. I was planning on going home May 10th and staying for both my little brothers' graduations and my birthday and just enjoying a little MN summer again this year. Things change. My grandpa who has been battling brain cancer since July of 2009 had a seizure on Wednesday. This morning he was put into home hospice care. I can't stay here. I thought I could stay until the end and fly home for the funeral, but I think if I do that I will regret it for a very long time. So, I have a feeling I will leave for the states next week. I have no idea how long I will be there. I don't have a return ticket. I was planning on buying one in March when I had enough money saved. Since I don't have enough money saved right now, I'm kind of screwed. I'm not sure what is going to happen. Maybe I'll win the lottery and everything will be ok.