The sun will come out tomorrow!!

When everything in my life gets all dark and blurry and it looks like everything is going to just keep going wrong, the sun comes out for a bit!! I had my first call back for a job interview in 3 MONTHS!!! So I had an interview today. Hopefully I get the job. Ro and I also went out today. We went to the mall just to look around. I hate going to the mall. Well, I hate going to the mall when I have NO money. So we only wandered around for a half an hour. Then we returned a watch Ro bought yesterday when he was "going out to eat" at least that's what he decided to tell me. The day after our anniversary, he woke up and left. And when I texted him, he said he went out to eat. Which made me furious! I was pissed that he wouldn't buy me flowers, but he would leave me in bed and go out to eat!!!! I was so pissed off that when he came home I was ready to scream. Then he told me come bring in groceries. Which made me even madder because we live with my parents and they just bought groceries and we didn't need anything special! So I went out to get the groceries because I was trying to get the dishes washed and he handed me 12 pretty red roses. So he made me cry and he bought himself a watch that didn't work. So anyways we exchanged it today. And then we went to Space Aliens to eat. It was fun. My food was ok. I won't ever get it again. And Ro and I have decided that we will never get nachos with jalapenos on them. I had a really strong "lunar" island ice tea that if I would have had one more my ass would have been kicked. It was nice to get some Ro and Shan time. We really needed it. Tomorrow we have to watch Evalie and I will probably pick some more apples and make sort of baked good. Evalie is getting so big I can't believe it sometimes. She has the cutest smiles ever!! And she has more than one! She has he hammy cheese smile. Her mouth full of peas smile. Her Aunty you are crazy smile. Her I'm awake smile. And a million and a half more. I have been asked a few times now from other people about what Ro and I feel about having kids now that we have been taking care of an infant for 3 months. They usually ask if taking care of a baby makes us want to have one sooner or later. Well I have mixed answers on this. Ro says later. Period. Later. But it really does make me want to have a baby right now. And I know that we just can't do that. We aren't in a stable enough lifestyle to raise a baby. So yes, taking care of someone else's baby does make me want a baby right now. And really badly. I hear about everyone else that is expecting and I get really really jealous. I dream about having babies. I look at clothes at the store and imagine my baby wearing them. But before I get all crazy, I think of all those clothes and how I would not be able to afford them. And then I slip back down to reality and go look for clothes that Evalie can wear. Today Ro and I found a onesie that I really really really wanted to get. It had a stick baby on it and above that is said me, a lady stick person and above it is said Mommy, and then it had a man stick person and above that is had asshole. Perfect. No need to say more. Ro also spotted one of those funny teeth nuks and he wanted to get that. While we were in Claire's I found a super freaking cute pair of fairy wings. Why on Earth would a 5 month old need those?!?! She can't even bounce and dance around pretending she's a fairy, butterfly, or angel!!! But it would make a good picture!!! I didn't buy them. :D Ro always says he doesn't want to have a kid yet, but that's only when Evalie is throwing a fit. But then when she is all happy and lovey he says don't worry we will have one soon. Or if we are shopping he can pick out a prego woman faster than I can! And he always says I can't wait til you are like that. Why am I still awake?!!?